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[16 Dec 2008|09:38pm] |
my heart's pumping so fast right now.
almost had an accident just now because i didnt check my blindspot. damn tml how to drive to tanah merah to fetch my brother. :(
saw cheryl's PM, "ineverhadanexplanationofwhyuleft". HELL i kinda have that in mind too. he nv explain and he nv will. because he has another bitch right now. Oh fish it. whatever. im a bitch and now i can bitch off somewhere else. :D
i just went for confession i should stop cursing. i love God. please calm my crazy heart now or i'll suffer from another fits again. HAIS.
fyp, mar law, gems, csw. In 2 weeks. class christmas party, family chalet and countdown in 2 weeks. HOW?! so many things, so little time.
i wish there were 36hours in a day. :)
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[28 Nov 2008|12:25am] |
my right eye lid needs to stop swelling.
the guys sitting diagonally on my right on wednesday is HOT and my attention was diverted because of him. WHATS HIS NAME!
part of the reason why i screwed my paper.
dumbdumb isnt appearing in school.
i feel fat for rotting at home today.
i think all my brother's gfs are "bitchy".
my face and hair is f.ing oily right now because i haven shower. YUCKS.
i am nothing compared to his f.ing PSP. ouch, that kinda hurt.
he has all the attention on earth while i envy the rest who gets his attention, but now i feel really disgusted.
DISGUSTED yet hurt when i see him. F. Where were my eyes? F F F F F!
I f.ing hate turbans. Screw them all. Because that turban man made me f.ing racist towards them since then. F. turbans.
I only like Kaur's family and Virdi. The rest just buzz off and suck my fat toes.
CY and JW please dont fight. :(
Sab where the heck are you!
Cheryl is my love and i hope her heart will stop bleeding.
Germans are HOT.
I should sleep now. Goodnight WORLD.
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[19 Nov 2008|08:02pm] |
Blogger is down so i shall have to turn to LJ for a lil while.
i was feeling so sour just now and the question popped into my mind again,
"Why did he leave me? Does he still love me or is he really letting go of me? Then what is it that we had shared in the pass 3 years when we were tgt? If it was love, then why did it stop so suddenly when i really did nothing wrong. I didnt want him to leave me, until now i still cry silently in the shower, in bed, when i think and miss him so much. Why did he choose to leave me, why?"
I keep asking myself over and over again, trying to go through everything in my mind, figuring what i have done and what might be the possible reasons for him to leave me. No matter how hard i crack my brain, i still cant decipher it. Most imptly, i just want to know what he really feels right now and back then.
It has been 2 months and it still feels like he is around, just being quiet somehow. I miss his hug and touch, him saying "i love you and i miss you".
Though he might have fallen for another girl i assume, he changed his password and all, i dont know. I guess we are really not meant to be afterall. But i must admit, i still love him everyday although he hurt me so bad. I dont know how should i stop loving him, we are already not a couple, in fact we dont even message or call anymore.
I have to start seeing someone else to make me forget him, yet i cant betray another for the one whom betrayed me. I dont know. Seriously.
This is a bad year for all relationships. Ben and Ger, Cher and Raym, Grace and Sam, Teng and Den. Everyone is breaking apart, everyone is crying so bad. Maybe we all just need a ride to Mars to meet the Martians so we could change our lives.
And maybe i should just see dumbdumb everyday and one day when he notices me, things might change. :) BECAUSE he is the cutest guy on earth though he looks freaking cheenaish gay, HELL he was so huge and fit and simple sweeps me off the ground. BUT sadly this angelic looking guy smokes. WHY CANT ALL CIGARETTES DISAPPEAR FROM THE SURFACE OF THE EARTH!! damn it.
Anyway, a deal with di! Since its our last year, lets just do something crazy. :) DUMBDUMB! i want to see you again. REAL BAD.
ALRIGHT. ciao.
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[05 Sep 2008|11:24pm] |
i wish i have 30 hours a day, so i can sleep for 6 more hours everyday.
i wish i have lesser things to do, so i can spend my holidays with my family.
i wish i have gotten the turf club job, so i wont be so poor now.
i wish someone will just hire me for any job, so i wont be known as jobless.
i wish i have the power to control things, so everything in my life will run smoothly.
i wish for many wishes so my wishes will all come true.
i wish.
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[29 Aug 2008|12:26am] |
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Day out with my party people.
BBQ at east coast park.
FUN and nice food. SLURP!
Tuesday, OUT WITH CHERYL! Thai food at Purvis Street. Its like the best thai food i've ever eaten. STUPID ME forgot to take a picture of it. ah dumb.
Sabri joined us later to crazy elephant and Cheryl really went crazy because of the JAGERBOMB. LOL, still waiting for the pictures to be loaded by SAB. HURRY HURRY HURRY!!
Enjoyed myself when im with them. MEET UP OFTEN my two besties. :)
AIN AND DINAH! AND KAUR! im sorry i have failed u as a friend. HAHAHA! i promise the next movie i will watch with u guys, mark my words i really will alright. NO LIES JUST PROMISES!
and Venus can be seen from earth. :P
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[26 Aug 2008|12:46am] |
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This is ME. :)
This is Ain. <3
I need to figure how to make this photo uploading thing more user friendly. Or i can only upload it through photobucket?
It is so lag. :(
I need a hug. Big bear hug. Who can give it to me?
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| ivan lim |
[23 Aug 2008|01:02pm] |
I cant figure how to change the background. Seriously, where is the template? Or is it so different from blogger. Maybe it is.
you're in my eyes darling. says: eh u become prettier not bad! Mary says: idiot, i have always been this good looking man! Mary says: just that no one noticed me! Mary says: WAHAHAHA super thick skin you're in my eyes darling. says: hahahaha Mary says: oooo lunch is ready, going to munch now. ttyl! you're in my eyes darling. says: hahaha you're in my eyes darling. says: i thought u meant that literally.. you're in my eyes darling. says: haha just kidding
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